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October 1st, 2007

01:46 am - School!
It's weird being in school when I spent 4 years...pretending to be homeschooled. I find that I am behind in math, but only a little. I'm getting a tutor for it so I don't fall behind. I think I will get a rude awakening in chemistry next semester.

I'm totally digging my Psych class. I find it's so very easy to study for things you love, but things you dislike, it's hard.

Made a 90 on my first psych exam. 75 on first math test :(
Took my first history exam Friday. Will probably get results...er...today... (monday). I think I did alright.

Procrastination is another problem of mine. I still usually get it done, but always at the last moment. WORK HARDER. >.<

Another problem is my weight. There is like, no healthy food here. I want some frickken veggies, but pretty much everything they serve is fried. I've already gained EIGHT POUNDS in only a little over a month! Holy crap!! >.< More salads, less pizza. @.@ More water and less soda!
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Lily Allen - Everything's Just Wonderful

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September 3rd, 2007

11:13 pm - Mmm, college.
So, I've been living in the dorm for a week and a half now (since August 23rd)...and dorm life isn't too bad. I actually don't miss my family that much... only a tiny bit.
I'm already making friends. I have 2 main friends that I mainly stick to, and a few more who are kinda friends. Like a dude named Scott who now tackle-hugs me. xD I had been gone this weekend to visit family, and when I got back today, I washed some clothes... the washers/dryers are in the "dungeon" (the bottom floor - it's half underground D:). Anyway, Scott walks by and sees me while I'm talking to someone, and he promptly yells "LEEAAHAAA!!" and runs towards me with his arms wide-spread and glomps me and spins me around. xD The guy I was talking to before just kinda stared and gave me this weird look like I was crazy. xD

I'm gonna have to work hard on homework. I already find myself procrastinating. >.<

Oh, and I got a fish...a betta...he's in a 2gal tank on my desk right now. xD I named him Sushi! I hope he fares better than the goldfish I had, which died after 4 days @.@ Poor Ralphie...

Crappy cellphone pic of my betta:
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Anyway, I'm going to bed. I gotta read like 20 pgs out of the Harbrace Handbook (it's for english...little book, big price) during breakfast...so I need to get up at 7:15 ish and be eating by 8. I have class at 9:30, and I generally get there 10 or 15 mins early. D: I did go ahead and do all FOUR PAGES (back AND front!) of math problems we were assigned, because I can't do that last-minute at all...though I would have some time after english. @.@ Oh well.
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Joshua Radin - Closer

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August 16th, 2007

12:25 am - It's only been a year...!
I leave for college in a week. It's crazy how going out on your own makes you think about where you've been.

Even reading my posts is like a trip back in time. A trip I'd never really want to take - my teenage years were dark and horrid. I was a little girl in a bad situation and in a bad state of mind. But I digress.

It's funny to compare the past and present me. What a change, what a change...

Anyway, things that happened this past year:
Went to MTAC! :D
I quit Hardees (I ended up hating it) and took a job at a convenience store/gas station when I turned 18. I worked there up until June when I quit to have time off before college.
I graduated High School. (May)
Went to Florida - twice. Once to Disney World & Sea World, 2 months later we went back, but to Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure. I rode Revenge of the Mummy 14 times, Dueling Dragons 5 times, and every other fast ride at least 3 times. :D
I applied and was accepted into Tennessee Technological University. Major: Nursing
I had my wisdom teeth out (In july)
Had eye surgery (August 7th)
Had bad reaction to anesthesia, resulting in hospital stay ( ^  Thanks, eyes :| )
Got my Driver's License (today! xD) (STAY OFF THE ROADS!)

Learned tons about everything!

And that pretty much sums up a whole year. Well, the major points anyway.
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: Joshua Radin - The Fear You Won't Fall

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August 21st, 2006

03:57 am
I'm back <3

Lots of crap has happened, I guess.
My aunt changed her mind after a few weeks. She realized I really have nowhere else to go, and that she needed to deal with some issues herself.

My Dad is back on drugs. Not really surprised.

My Mom moved to Alabama. To a little town. Why, I don't know...

Oh, and I got a job. I work at the Drive-thru of a fast-food place. It's super-tough. But it's pretty good pay for a first job, $6.75/hr with a raise in 3 months after you start. I've been working there about a month and a half now. Started on July 4th~

Oh, and I should be going on an EPIC VACATION <3 Well, to me at least. Goin' to the beach, bitches! We're gonna rent a condo on the beach for a week...we're gonna go to zoos, national parks, and other cool thangs'. That should be in the middle of next month or so...we're still working on the details. Funfun~

I'm tired ~.~ I've been working all weekend. The only problem with part-time is that they screw you with the hours and put you on the shitty days no one else wants. I'm working friday - monday (3pm-9pm)this week as apposed to tues-fri
I also fell on my ass at work today. It was funny, but my butt hurt...and my pride. I slipped in some water and fell infront of like, 2 shift managers with another standing near by. I was the only crew on shift tonight. 3 shift managers, lol. Though it's more people than usual. We usually get shafted and get 3 people...one for making burgers, one for drive thru, and a lucky one gets front line. Front line is easy. Drive thru blows, because you take money, make drinks, shakes, cook fries, chicken strips, etc, bag the burgers/fries, hand it all out...all while taking another person's order. Only one person working drive is hard. Today, I also got shafted with cleaning the bathrooms. Jesus, the guy's bathroom was NASTY. Pure grossness. Smelled of ass and pee. Blah. The girl's bathroom wasnt so bad. It was pretty clean already. The only thing good about cleaning the bathrooms is that they have a speaker in there with music playing. It's often good music <3

Anyway, life is good. I'm already planning for next year's MTAC! :D Middle Tennessee Anime Convention, for those who don't know! I went this year(back in april) and it was a blast! My aunt took me and my older bro.  I won best in anime for my cosplay as Totoro! I've found my pic floating around the web, which is super cool. Anyway, within the next month, I'm gonna reserve my hotel room at the con hotel. I'm doing it EARLY this time so I can get the group rate. This time, my older bro will pick me up and we'll go together. He's gonna pay half the hotel, and I'll pay the rest...I told him I'd pay for his admission, food, and gas...'cause I'm nice. I figure it'll take about 3 months of saving from worth to raise about $1,200...$200 for my half of the hotel, $200 for food for the both of us (allowicating PLENTY, my bro eats like a cow), $65 or so for admission for both, $100 for gas and misc. crap. That = $635 to spend on whatever the hell I want! Hello dealer room <3 I had $170 last year, which ROCKED...but next MTAC will be even more awesome. More money, less rules. My aunt was a little mad if I woke her up on accident when I got back in the room, which was at like 3am. So I came in earlier than I wanted. This time, I'm gonna get no more than 3hrs of sleep a night. Last time, I went to bed around 3am and got up at 7am. I'm shaving an hour off!
I'm gonna do everything, make more friends, and...everything else! I met someone there last year, and we've kept in touch. We're thinking that she, I, her BF, and my bro might all go out to eat at a hibachi grill during the con. It's gonna be so awesome. Plus, I'll be 18 later this year...so I can go into the yaoi panel >:D AND BUY HARDCORE YAOI MANGAS!

Lol, bad me <3
Current Mood: busybusy
Current Music: Switchfoot - Stars

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May 4th, 2006

01:55 am - so..
I haven't updated in a long, long time...but something major happened...

My aunt is...well...kicking me out. Her excuse was that "she missed her privacy". I'm going to go live with my Dad. He just got out of jail a few months ago...so...I dunno.

I'm scared...I mean...of everything. Of my declining health, of having to make another huge change. I hate this.
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Current Music: Better Than Ezra - A Lifetime

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February 7th, 2006

05:05 am
The Gabe Dixon Band - All Will Be Well (download on their page here)

The new day dawns
and I am practising my purpose once again
It is fresh and it is fruitful if I win
but if I lose...
Oooh, I don't know.
I'll be tired, but I will turn and I will go
Only guessing till I get there, then I'll know
Oh, I will know

And all the children walking home past the factories
can see the light that's shining in my window
as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
can feel the love that radiates
illuminating what I know is true

and all will be well
even after all the promises you've broken to yourself
all will be well
You can ask me how, but only time will tell

The winter's cold
but the snow still lightly settles on the trees
and immense is still the moment I can seize until I know
and all will be well
Even though sometimes this is hard to tell
and the fight is just as frustrating as hell
All will be well

And all the children walking home past the factories
can see the light that's shining in my window
as I write this song to you
And all the cars running fast along the interstate
can feel the love that radiates
illuminating what I know is true

And all will be well
even after all the promises you've broken to yourself
all will be well
You can ask me how, but only time will tell

you've got to keep it up
and don't give up
and chase your dreams and you will find
all in time

and all the children walking home past the factories
can see the light that's shining in my window
as I write this song to you
and all the cars running fast along the interstate
can feel the love that radiates
illuminating what I know is true

and all will be well
even after all the promises you've broken to yourself
all will be well
you can ask me how, but only time will tell
all will be well
even after all the promises you've broken to yourself
all will be well
you can ask me how, but only time will tell
you can ask me how, but only time will tell

I'm addicted to this song xD! It reminds me of Billy Joel in a way.
Anyway, my life has been relatively uneventful. Except that I found out my mom didn't REGISTER ME FOR HOMESCHOOLING THIS YEAR! I called them to ask about something, then they tell me I'm not registered for this year.
I was so pissed. But if we get the info and money in soon, this year will still count.

Oh, and I've started practicing and learning to draw a bit better. It's fun, and I <3 this tablet!

Anyway, it's 5:10am....bed time, anyone? xD

Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: The Gabe Dixon Band - All Will Be Well

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January 27th, 2006

08:07 pm - sashiburi desu!
I haven't updated in like...a year.
So I've lived with my aunt since October, because my mom tried (and nearly suceeded) killing herself in a very disturbing fashion.
Anyway, it's nice living with my aunt Sheila. It's often pretty fun, and she's just generally a good person. x3

I'm waiting on her to get back from the airport. She went to Cancun on a business trip on Monday, and is due back any minute now x3 It was boring without her...I just lounged around the house the whole time.
Current Mood: okayokay
Current Music: Nickel Creek - This Side

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July 9th, 2005

02:58 pm
I havent updated in sooo long ~.~
Ah well. I got really fed up with my mom, and my aunt said I could come live with her. In the end, I decided to stay because she's been acting really weird since my aunt talked to her about me moving in with her
And by weird, I mean nice...
...Which is weird for her...
.........And scary.......

Anyway, I finished watching Full Metal Alchemist. I was sorta dissapointed by the ending, though. Hmmm...nothing else is really going on right now. *yawns* I may go swimming in an hour or so.

Oh, and I got my T-CAP scores back. I'm so #@$#@$!ing happy. I got Post High School on everything except math, which it says I'm in 12th grade, lol. This was the TCAPS for 10th grade, so that's gooooood...
When I start school back in the fall, I'll be in 11th grade!! A junior! So close to College...I can smell it...bwahahah! Anyway, that's all for now.

Current Mood: groggygroggy
Current Music: Kansas - Carry on Wayward Son

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June 1st, 2005

07:55 pm
Ok, I've been playing gaia online a bit recently. I've realized that there are a bunch of perverted and angsty 13yr olds these days.
Seriously. I think being depressed is like, fashonable. I was at the mall the other day and standing in the waiting area waiting on my aunt. Ok, so the waiting area is right in between hot topic and abercombi and finch or whatever. There was some girl in abercombi buying something (within ear shot) and I heard the cashier say "That'll be $219.57" and the 16/17 year old forked over a credit card. The hell? Then as she came out of the store with her ONE PAIR OF $200 JEANS, she was talking on her cell phone saying something to her friend "Yeah, geez, my life sucks so bad". I wanted to slap her. Your life sucks? Ok dickwad, give up your new cell phone with unlimited minutes and your $200 jeans and then see how bad life sucks. There are people in other countries that would be your slave for a set of cheap clothes from walmart. I hate people who has a life 10x better than most, but still think they have to right to say how bad theirs sucks.
Current Music: Gravitation - Super Drive

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May 11th, 2005

01:46 am
Blah. Hmm...what to say?
My Mom is officially crazy. I mean, really, she needs help. More than I can give since I'm not a professional...but I really don't feel like going into it very much right now. Lets just say that she's a selfish suicidal bastard.
Anyway, Today, I just sorta re-watched alot of Gravitation. I can only find the CD with eps 1-7 on it, I can't remember what I did with the other one. Ah well. Maybe I'll come across it later? Right now, I opened BT to start downloading the 14th ep of Twin Spica, and HLY HELL. 4 seeds and I'm the only leecher! YES! NO UPLOADING! 4 hours to go, but that's not too bad since I'm still on dialup.

In other news, I applied for a job at Walmart. Naturally, I didn't get it. One of the workers basically told me that they've never hired a 16 year old before, but what the hey. I applied anyway. Now, insetad of filling out a form, you fill it out electronically. I'd like to say this: WORST MACHINE EVER. The questions are weird and have really odd answers sometimes, plus you can't leave any extra comments. It's really stupid. There was one question (well, statement) "I used to smoke marijuana, but I've stopped now", and you can mark either Strongly Disagree, Disagree, slight disagree, very slightly disagree, etc all the way up to Strongly Agree. I was like, wtf? What if you've never smoked pot at all? What the hell? What was the person who wrote this SMOKING? I'm pretty sure it wasnt a regular cig. About 1/2 of the questions were about stealing. Asking if you'd ever stolen, is it ok to steal,...are you SURE you've never stolen, etc. It's like they put "Have you ever stolen from a previous employer?" on ther 3 or 4 times because they were seeing if you'd slip up and admit it. "SEE THERE! On question number 238 she said she STOLE! O-M-G!!!" What the hell do they think someone would do? Stuff a bike under their huge-ass jacket in the middle of the summer and try to walk out the door?

Anyway, Not much else is new. Blah. Next month we will be evicted, probably. My aunt is gonna stop paying rent and my mom wont even try to get a job.

That's it for now, I guess. Byebye.
Current Mood: worriedworried
Current Music: "Super Drive" from the Gravitation OST

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